She’s new to this. She’s never been a domme before. But you wouldn’t know it; she has such confidence. And she’s wonderfully gifted. She has a quick intelligence, she’s very imaginative, and she’s not afraid to go all the way. I don’t quite know what that will be like when we get there. I think she has plans I haven’t heard about yet. But already she seems to understand me almost better than I understand myself. Because, I am still shy, I am still ashamed to really show what I am, so I hide things from myself. And yet she sees them. She has an instinctive knowledge of the deep, dark and dirty things at the bottom of my mind, things I didn’t know were there. It’s humiliating to admit what I really want from her. But she is not afraid, she doesn’t despise me for it; I think she has my best interests at heart. She’s going to get to the bottom of it. Not because I want it, but because she does. She wants to feel her power, she wants to get to the point where her power is total.
Fundamentally it’s about attitude, about power, authority, control. It’s not what she does, it’s how she does it. Some girls have it, some don’t. I’m lucky I’ve got one who has it.